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Sunday, September 26th, 2004
1:03 pm	bad religion. rise against. 11/6. the riv. 20$. anyone interested? im giong. or how about coheed. underoath. 10/20. the riv. 19$ i might go to that one too. i dont know. (13 dropped dead | fire at will)
Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
8:13 pm	i hate my fuckign dad. my phone is officially 100% broken. flip phone? no. 2 piece phone. yes. call and leave voicemails. call my house now. if you dont know my house im me and i'll give it to you. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: alexisonfire (7 dropped dead | fire at will)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
1:13 am	i love you so much more than words can show. i hate being in shitty moods. today was good, rode wiht the chad and the cute persian. ikea (hot girls), the living end, flat tires, police, and dirt jumps. i got grounded for not doing the garbage but whatever man. lame ass dad. sahn and gina stopped by. it was nice i suppose. scott came, i went inside. im sorry for how i acted about that. i just dont liek the kid and i dont want to give him a chance...as shitty as that is. amanda stopped by. we talked for 2 hours. i love her. she let me burn her cds and such. waited for matt to drop off my amp...never happened. oh well. i'll get it. i just want it soon. tomorrow im riding only for liek 2 hours max i think. then i get to see jackie. its going to be a bryan and jackie today. it should be great. i cant wait. then im hanging out wiht matt at night which shoudl rock because we havent hung out in a while. i really like taht kid. even though 4 man op is pretty much over. i still love all teh guys...the 4 of us will still stick together till the end. i realized a band isnt only a group of friends just having fun. it turns out to be so much more than that. the friendships you make will grow to be so much more. i've really been thinking about that alot recently. i love you guys. justin, you and i need to hang out some more. and soon. we have so much fun togehter. lets not let the past 2-3 years go to waste. sally. im sorry for being so shitty recently. i'm just an ass sometiems tahts all. i promise you. we will hang out. saturday we're hanging out. and probably monday too because that was the plan. i dont have much more to say, im tired of typing. fuck off. Current Mood: cranky Current Music: my chemical romance (8 dropped dead | fire at will)
Wednesday, March 31st, 2004
9:48 pm	Saturday, April 3rd. Elk Grove Teen Center (180 Morrison Drive) 530 $5 4 man operation The Local Scene Midwest Blue Amazing Transparent Man Split Habit Farewell Anthem (12 dropped dead | fire at will)
Sunday, March 7th, 2004
1:33 am	i love being in great moods. i cant get you off my mind...but i love it. you made me so unbelieveabley happy tonight. <3<3. :) Current Mood: amazing Current Music: mxpx (21 dropped dead | fire at will)
Monday, March 1st, 2004
5:57 pm	im glad to know you're happy. cause this is killing me inside. so me and shan are done. whatever. i've learned alot of things. i've also felt alot of feelings. im not going to elaborate on it. none of you want to fuckign hear it. i think i might hang wiht chad tomorrow. cool kid. i had so much more to complain about. but i dont remember. not that you care. this is the worst part. it wont be easy. i feel that i've been living in a lie for a while. i need to come out to reality and stop running from problems. problem 1 is hockey. game at 7. i need to leave now. bye bye. i hope you hate me. Current Mood: enraged Current Music: alexisonfire (14 dropped dead | fire at will)
Sunday, February 29th, 2004
7:04 pm	BACK TO THE MOTOR LEAGUEEEEEE hockey we won like 15-0 i had 3 goals 3 or 4 assists. after i got a new stick thanks to ryan. i owe you one man. im excited to use it tomorrow night haha. after i played hockey with spencer. then went to justins. jamin raced an old lady haha it was funny. fixed justins bike and rode for a while. then went home. i called chad but he coudlnt do anything. called shan but she dindt pick up. sitting here. oh man. propagandhi is sooo good. like so super good. haha. end. -bryan Current Mood: eh Current Music: propagandhi (2 dropped dead | fire at will)
Thursday, February 19th, 2004
10:38 pm	ugh. shitty day. got home and was rushed so i forgot my cell. ortho was fine. practice was good. www.4manoperation.tk -- theres a FREE show next friday check it out. got home and sat online which sucked. i found out how nice of a girl nicole is and how much we're alike its nice. um. i heard some things i didnt want to hear so taht dindt help cheer me up becasue i was already stressing about it. turnabout is saturday and i have no clue what the fuck is going on, all i know is shannons house after. someone give me a call and fill me in BEFORE saturday. thanks. ugh i have too much shit to do. i wish i would get a phone call. bye bye beautiful. dont FUCKING bother to write. -bryan Current Mood: stressed Current Music: coheed (2 dropped dead | fire at will)
Monday, February 9th, 2004
11:03 pm	im feeling a loss of old friends. i talked to Rachael alot tongiht. thanks so much. you too katie. you 2 helped alot. i jsut hate this feeling of unwantedness. i wish i could have things just laid out perfectly for once. but thats never going to happen. nooooo not for me. what-fucking-ever. this is total bullshit. Current Mood: pissed off, worthelss, shitty. (14 dropped dead | fire at will)
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
8:50 pm	FC! haha justin. (1 dropped dead | fire at will)
9:47 am	agenda suicide. yesterday was alright. woke up about 11. went to amandas at 230. me justin amanda and alyssa. me and justin walked to his house at 4 or so. put on straplocks. dressed like assholes and went to teh show. it was so shitty. oh well. we got back to justins. then ryan got us and we went sledding. it was alright, i've had better sledding days. but it was fun im not going to complain. we were jumping and shit. haha. went home at 12. sat online. went to bed at like 130. now that i woke up...hockey game at 11. i ahve to leave in 10 mins. and i still have to eat hahahahaha. shannon comes home today. cool. -bryan Current Mood: hungry Current Music: The Faint ( fire at will)
Friday, February 6th, 2004
10:37 pm	pull the trigger and the nightmare stops so today was cool. got home and got my shit together. about 515 chad got me and took me to daillys, then went home and got his shit. who was there...hm. me dailly brax jon brian behdad jeremy mike nate piotr and ross. i think thats it? who knows. we went sledding/snowboarding. it rocked. haha. chris met up wiht us a little later. we built a huge jump and shit yo. it was so cool. haha. me chad and behdad were throwing HUGE shiftys. like completely sideways. it was awesome. jeremy, mike, and ross left. then we took a bleacher and set it up after a jump. chad was going crazy on it and we got it on tape. then brax tried and ate shit, barely missed cracking his head open. it was cool haha. we got that on tape too. i threw ONE 3. thats it. and it was halfassed becuase i landed then spun the rest. oh well. jon drove me home at 8 and i went to hockey. that was alright. we scrimaged for liek 20 mins so it was cool. shan called on my ride home. we talked then her mom needed the phone. so she said she'd call in 2 mins or so. that was 5 mins ago. haha whateverrrrr. so thats my day. tomororw is supposed to be my play date wiht joe tullo haha. its also a NOL show, then sledding wiht Ryan and Evan and Justin. its going to be awesome. im looking forward to it. this is a long post and i expect comments bitches. -bryan Current Mood: hyper Current Music: The Living End (7 dropped dead | fire at will)
Thursday, February 5th, 2004
10:35 pm	ok i guess i have SOME good news. me and joey tullo have a play date! yeay! oh and justin, you're joining. me and joe wrote a song about it today in lunch. date date date were going on a date dates are great when you're 8 "wait, joe, we're not 8" "oh well!" its going to be the highlight of my year maybe. ( fire at will)
10:21 pm	meh meh i've been shitty recently. yesterday was fun. i played hockey from like 430-6. called shan. she's supposibly grounded forever or something i odnt know. so i wont be seeing her for a while. i went back and played more hockey from 7-9. shan called at 1030 and we talked for 10 mins or so before she had to go. i fell asleep shortly after. today i went and played hockey for about 30 mins after school. then went to matts. we practiced a little. finished the song perfect now so thats cool. then we went sledding and it was fun. we're going tomorrow after school, then im going saturday with ryan and justin and evan it'll be cool. im sick of waiting for shit. i shouldnt have to wonder all teh time. whatever. -bryan Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Good Riddance ( fire at will)
Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
9:18 pm	i have butterflies in my stomach and i LOVE it today was alright i guess. in english it seemed liek the whore student teacher was always picking on me. and she was always all like "bryan pick your head up" "bryan pay attention" jesus. bryan this bryan that. whutevah. i dont care...much. it was just annoying. gym is amazing. me doug dailly kyle and some carlos kid on a basketball team. we fucking own ass man. yeah. woods was cool, jasons in our class now it owns. spanish was fun as always. i love that class. i came home then went to daillys at liek 5. we sat in his hot tub after we played some video games. that was quite cool. i got home and came inside and checkered some of my pickguard. im going to do ALL of morgans tomorrow or something. im really happy wiht the way ive been feeling recently. like, i have felt like crap, im kinda crappy now. but im still feeling great. i cant stop thinking about how happy i am with her. its really something special to me.....and im really glad i have it. -bryan Current Mood: blank Current Music: The Faint (5 dropped dead | fire at will)
Monday, February 2nd, 2004
9:09 pm	boinggggg school=normal. after school=sucky. hockey= lost 6-1 tuesday=yo no se wednesday=shannon? thursday=band practice friday=hockey 9-10, anyone up before/after? saturday=roadie-ing a NOL show, then sledding wiht ryan and justin and such. Sunday=hockey at 11. anyone up for after call me. Current Mood: blah Current Music: dashboard ( fire at will)
Sunday, February 1st, 2004
6:25 pm	thank you stranger for your therapeutic smile. today was good. we won our game 18-0, i had 3 goals and 4 assists. talked to my coach for liek 45 mins after the game. dispite all the yelling, he's a real nice guy. we talked about dicipline on the team and such. kids not showing up to practice. it was kinda funny becasue he was swearing alot. oh well. then i went to el famous burrito wiht my dad. got one. came home and it was liek 1230 or somethign like that. haha. so i called justin and told him we'd pick him up after we did shit around the house. put the big tv in my room, moved around fitness shit for my mom. then we picked up justin. he brought se7en and phone booth. shannon and alyssa came over at like 3. we watched some of phone booth, got bored, watched all of shrek, then put in se7en. it was awesome. i had so much fun seeing shannon. i didnt want her to leave but justin had to at 630, so alyssa called her mom to pick them up too. oh well. i love it though. just lying there. my bed now smells like her, heh. awesome day. whoo. -bryan Current Mood: happy Current Music: bright eyes (6 dropped dead | fire at will)
Saturday, January 31st, 2004
11:03 pm	hm today was cool. woke up. called amanda. me alyssa and amanda went to the mall. i got my pants. Madison Favorites from American Eagle. rocking. im a size 10 in these haha. awesome. so we got done there and picked up by my dad. justin came over. we watched jackass the movie and desperado in my room. it was cool. i fell asleep for a while i guess. oh well haha. it owned. i was so tired and i still am. i'll wait up for shan to call liek she said she would. then i get to wake up at 830 for hockey tomorrow. damnit. then shannon comes over 130 or 2 haha awesome. laterrrrr -bryan Current Mood: wrecked Current Music: a wilhelm scream (19 dropped dead | fire at will)
9:33 am	yeah well the past few days have been good. band practice was good we finished a song. school friday was normal. kinda borign but whatever. we're doing some kind of protest or something in spanish its kinda fun. after school i sat around and shiz. mike called me but it was like 7 and i had to be home at 815 so we dindt do anything. i went to hockey. got a lecture for calling a drill a joke becasue nobodys paying attention except me and a few ohter kids. whatever. i talked to shannon online and called but there was no answer. um. lets see. i was asleep at like...hell. 12? im not sure but it was early. so i woke up at like 830 because my room gets too fucking bright. haha. i found 16 burger king coupons. it was rad. today im going to the mall wiht amanda i think. buying me some pants yo. then im seeing shannon tongiht or tomrorow, and im probably going to hang out with chad or mike on the other day. it'll be intense. -bryan Current Mood: flirty Current Music: Kansas (8 dropped dead | fire at will)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
10:19 pm	falling, im falling. well today was awesome as expected. got driven to sallys. me eddie sally and rosana hung out. it was fun. i came home to an empty house. my sister came home shortly after with my grandparents. niec to see them again fo sho. dad came home and drove me to shannons. it was lovely. we watched tv. shit we've already seen. then we took pictures. haha. it was great. i enjoyed myself much. i need more nights like this. maybe i'll be 3 for 3 for flowing convos yeahhhhh. i think so. this is like a record. i think it will be. -bryan Current Mood: loved Current Music: offspringggggggggggg (4 dropped dead | fire at will)